It's been a long time since I've logged on to my account, and even longer since I made a post. It's also been more than a year since I mentioned HIM, the one I've codenamed Broken Fang. Well, I was wrong. I still think about him. We spent about 2 hours together tonight. Nothing happened. We talked, and he strove to break any silence that passed between us. And he's driving me insane. He sat beside me several times, and I sank a little inside. I was scared to be too close to him. He asked me about boys. I looked down at the ground and quickly said that they were non-existant.
He, since the beginning of the fall, has had a girlfriend. Now, I am NOT the type to go and try and break people up, but he's just...frustrating! I see him, and I feel like I need to confess to him, but I just can't. I can't tell him. But then he goes and says things like he wants me to drive him to see his girlfriend (he never mentioned that was why he was going where he was going, but it was an unspoken understanding that it was his destination), that he can't stand driving alone, that he wants my company... That he wants to drive me to my relatives...I was never going to visit them in the first place. I already saw them, called him with my special Verizon-ness where all I have to do is send a voice mail rather than actually talking to the person, and he got the message way too late...he would've come, and I was too scared to talk to him. Because I thought it would be awkward if he met my family and they asked if we were dating...
He is the only guy to successfully make me cry. He makes me laugh, think, and cry. There's a lump in my throat now. I just...I don't know. There has got to be SOME reason that he seeks my company, right? He didn't have to stop here in Bingo to do stuff, and call me to keep him company while he re-arranged his room. He didn't have to hang out with me. But he did, and he's driving me insane!
SITAcon was the first real convention I've ever been to. I cosplayed as Lia from Le Chevalier d'Eon, and I won the highest award, which was Best in Show. Here's some pictures:
`Dark Knight' grabs $43.8M more, nears $400M total
By DAVID GERMAIN, AP Movie WriterSun Aug 3, 3:16 PM ET
Even an army of the undead could not dislodge Batman from his box-office perch.
The Batman blockbuster "The Dark Knight" hauled in $43.8 million to rank as Hollywood's top movie for the third-straight weekend, fending off "The Mummy: Tomb of the Dragon Emperor," which opened a close second with $42.5 million.
"The Dark Knight" has soared to a $394.9 million haul in just 17 days, according to studio estimates Sunday. The Warner Bros. release should sail past the $400 million mark by Monday or Tuesday, said Dan Fellman, head of distribution for Warner.
That would be on the film's 18th or 19th day of release, another record for "The Dark Knight," which had an all-time high opening weekend of $158.4 million. The previous $400 million record-holder was "Shrek 2," which hit that mark in 43 days.
"It's a film that is just rewriting the record books every day and redefining our notions of what a blockbuster can be," said Paul Dergarabedian, president of box-office tracker Media By Numbers.
"The Dark Knight" will top $500 million, predicted Fellman, who would not speculate on whether it could approach the all-time domestic revenue record of "Titanic" at $600.8 million.
Even if it edged past that mark, "The Dark Knight" would lag behind "Titanic" in terms of actual tickets sold. Admission prices are up more than 50 percent since "Titanic" came out in 1997, according to Media By Numbers. "The Dark Knight" would have to take in about $900 million to match the number of tickets that "Titanic" sold.
In terms of revenue alone, however, "The Dark Knight" will pass the original "Star Wars," which is No. 2 behind "Titanic" with $461 million, and such hits as "Shrek 2" ($436.5 million), "E.T. the Extra-Terrestrial" ($434.9 million) and "Star Wars: Episode I — The Phantom Menace" ($431.1 million).
Early anticipation over Heath Ledger's diabolical performance as Batman foe the Joker built to a frenzy in the months after the actor's death from an accidental prescription drug overdose in January.
A huge opening weekend was guaranteed, but the movie has sustained its audience from stellar reviews and audience buzz.
"The movie has grown in terms of its base audience from primarily what was conceived as a young male movie to a movie for everybody, from 8 to 80," Fellman said. "They're going to see it because of the reviews, they're going to see it because of the word of mouth. They're going just to see what it's all about, and they all like it."
"The Dark Knight" also has taken in $202.5 million overseas, opening in six more markets in August, among them Japan, France and Russia.
Universal's third "Mummy" flick sends Brendan Fraser's adventurer and his wife, played this time by Maria Bello, to China, where they battle a resurrected ancient ruler, played by Jet Li, and his undead minions.
Though it put up strong numbers, the new installment had the smallest opening of the three movies. "The Mummy" debuted with $43.4 million in 1999 and "The Mummy Returns" did $68.1 million in 2001.
Along with its $42.5 million domestic haul, the new "Mummy" tale pulled in $59.5 million in 28 countries overseas.
"The Dark Knight" almost certainly took away some business from the "The Mummy," since both movies competed for the same action crowds.
"It looked like we could do somewhere between $45 and $50 million, but no one could have foreseen the juggernaut `The Dark Knight' has become," said Nikki Rocco, head of distribution for Universal.
Disney's "Swing Vote," about a presidential election that hinges on the lone ballot of an over-the-hill slacker played by Kevin Costner, opened weakly with $6.3 million, coming in at No. 6.
Estimated ticket sales for Friday through Sunday at U.S. and Canadian theaters, according to Media By Numbers LLC. Final figures will be released Monday.
1. "The Dark Knight," $43.8 million.
2. "The Mummy: Tomb of the Dragon Emperor," $42.5 million.
3. "Step Brothers," $16.3 million.
4. "Mamma Mia!", $13.1 million.
5. "Journey to the Center of the Earth," $6.9 million.
6. "Swing Vote," $6.3 million.
7. "Hancock," $5.2 million.
8. "WALL-E," $4.7 million.
9. "The X-Files: I Want to Believe," $3.4 million.
I feel much more relieved when I write these thoughts out, so I'm just going to do so.
The one, whom shall be named Broken Fang, is driving me mad. And I've realized why. He's everything I've wanted, and something I've never had. But he likes someone else, and how selfish is it of me to think that he would like me back? I can't just try and take him away from what could be a happy relationship. He's not in one yet, but he could be. But then what about me? All the things I've been going through with this damned show makes me think that I deserve at least something. I drove my usual route tonight to think things out, and found myself crying...not too hard, mostly just tears that trickled down my cheek. But I was crying nonetheless. I decided to get gas and some depressing food at McDonalds's so I went to a gas station, and when I got out of the car, the very first song that played was "Daniel" by Elton John, and it just about drove me to tears again. Is this normal? Do people get this worked up about others? I feel like I'm crazy insane for feeling this way. I mean, if he knew I was like this, wouldn't that just make him even less attracted to me if he was even attracted in the first place? I've told three people. And I wrote a poem in one of these person's notebook about Broken Fang, but I think it was too disjointed to decipher. And I told others in a different setting, but I doubt they will say anything. But I feel like he may already know. I saw what I thought was him touching a girl's hand in a caressing manner. This didn't bother me, but I was just curious to see if he really was. So I was staring. And she looked up at me and I tried to make it seem like I had just been looking in her direction and so I made a face. But then they exchanged something, perhaps a look, and then he whispered in her ear, and she looked at me. Or at least, I think she did. By this time I was trying to pretend I was interested in looking at something else. Maybe I deserve what I want for once. But how am I to know that he doesn't deserve what he wants, which is not me? I'm getting emotionally crushed this semester, and it's time there was a little joy in my life. I keep wondering if he knows and thinks I'm crazy. I really hope not. I would hope he knows and is flattered. But all I've been doing is hoping lately...
Well, sometimes I forget that there's other people in the world...I mean, it's one thing if someone's single, but I guess I forgot that other people might be single, too... I was just thinking though, a few months from now, I'll read this and think how dumb I am...
I haven't really posted for public purposes in a long time, but I had this sudden urge to today...
So I've been really busy lately, what with school, two jobs, and rehearsals for the musical, and I've had a lot of unwanted drama thrown at me. And when I say thrown at me, I mean that it isn't coming from me, and I just let the ball drop, so to speak. Anyway, I've been kinda lonely lately, which I usually am (Sorry, I mean relationship lonely, not lonely lonely), and I've kinda fallen for this guy because we have a lot in common, but I keep thinking there's no possible way for him to like me back. And I really can't read him at all (when you're talking to a guy and he won't look you in the eye even when you're inches apart, does that mean he's shy or not interested?). There's other past crushes that I've run into in the past month, but I feel like they're just fleeting glimpses of the past and what is, and what never will be. And not that this REALLY bothers me. I've got so many years, you know? But it just bugs me that I've been so alone. And with the person I like right now, well, maybe that will never be, too. And I think I'm OK with that, and if anyone knows me, they know my crushes don't last more than a month or two. But still, it's almost annoying! I guess that's the end of my rant, but I would like to point out that today at rehearsal, the narrator/mysterious man collapsed to his knees and had to be taken to the hospital on the stretcher. It was scary and surreal...
I saw a werewolf with a Chinese menu in his hand Walking through the streets of Soho in the rain He was looking for a place called Lee Ho Fook's Going to get himself a big dish of beef chow mein Werewolves of London
If you hear him howling around your kitchen door Better not let him in Little old lady got mutilated late last night Werewolves of London again Werewolves of London
He's the hairy-handed gent who ran amuck in Kent Lately he's been overheard in Mayfair Better stay away from him He'll rip your lungs out, Jim I'd like to meet his tailor Werewolves of London
Well, I saw Lon Chaney walking with the Queen Doing the I saw Lon Chaney, Jr. walking with the Queen Doing the I saw a werewolf drinking a pina colada at Trader Vic's His hair was perfect Werewolves of London Draw blood
I finished reading HBP before I went to school on Thursday, and ended up having an interesting morning. As I was coming down by the Number 5, I saw a really, really tall guy standing inbetween the lanes waiting to finish crossing. Not that a really tall person is odd, but when I got closer, I noticed how strange he looked: long gray beard and hair, with black clothes (that actually looked almost brown because they seemed to be really dusty), an odd fudora, and a brief case. Then, in class, a couple people were looking towards the window and talking in hushed, yet excited voices, about something outside the window. It took me a while to realize what they were looking at, but then I saw it: a fat little toad trying to get in the classroom. The window was closed, but he was even standing on his hind legs and pushing his webbed fingers on the window. He kept pushing and pushing, and sometimes he would stop and blink, and you would swear the thing was looking right at you! After class, we wanted to open the window and get him and release him someplace else (figuring that he had gotten trapped), but decided that we were just nerdy music kids who didn't have the balls to touch a toad.
I haven't logged on, nor have I even been on here in a few weeks. I'm not gonna write much, but I'll give a brief update.
I've been suffering a cold since Monday, and luckily my Musicianship and Theory classes were canceled Yesterday and Today. Tonight I went to an Indian Classical Music concert, and as I was driving home, I accidentally had my car in 2nd gear and didn't realize it and thought there was something wrong with my car. Luckily I went to the gas station and got some gas, started driving, and realized my folly.
Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering.
Experience Level:
Your experience level is medium. You probably have had a couple significant loves. And you may have even had your heart broken. But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people.
Dominance:
Your dominance is low. This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced. You know a relationship is not about getting your way. And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom.
Cynicism:
Your cynicism is medium. You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love... But you've definitely been burned enough to know better. You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist.
Independence:
Your independence is medium. In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time." You usually find it easy to be part of a couple. But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.
You sarcastic? Never! You're as sweet as a baby bunny. Seriously, though, you have a sharp tongue - and you aren't afraid to use it. And if people are too wimpy to deal with your attitutde, then too bad. So sad.
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